This time You cry...

I didnt ask anyone to,
They just know the dates and they naturally assume i want to celebrate...
But i promise this time will be different.
For days now, i have been looking on to reasons why i should hold on. Why should i hold to life. It has never favored me...
 Why would i want to wake up every other day only to feel as worthless as today?
What am i really hoping to achieve by taking one more extra breath every time?
This time they will all cry...
Now i do not say that to look pitiful or make you wish you could "do something about it."
I say it because  i have mo reason to hang on,
For once I'd feel freedom and evwry other person will be burdened...
...for once I'll be at peace while they all wish...
Wish they had treated me better, wish they had loved me better, wish they held on to me tighter ...
This time they would know the date and they wont celebrate,
And it'd be because i asked them not to....